First day of the rest of my life?

Well, it kind of feels like the first day of the rest of my life. I’m turning 45 next month and I am officially unemployed today. It’s still hard for me to figure out exactly what happened or why I finally decided to quit. I think it was an intuitive feeling—a sixth sense that this was the next step. But, I do not really understand it. I do not have much faith that there’s something else out there. The Les Miserable song is constantly swimming in my head: “Who am I? I’m 24601.” Because, I really do not know who I am without a job. No, not a job. A career.

It’s the first time that I have said out loud that maybe, just maybe, practicing law is not for me. This is am amazing feat as I think these thoughts have been with me a long time. It’s hard to discern, though. Are these the thoughts of every lawyer: “Maybe law is not for me?” Or are these the thoughts that have slowly been creeping in my semi-conscious that have just gotten loud enough that I’m willing to say the words—despite what the words mean: I may not practice my chosen profession anymore.

What a crazy experience. I am not sure I could have quit three weeks ago had I not gone to my meeting the day before and heard others talk about fear. The most important information I experienced that day was that faith is not jumping from A to B, it’s jumping from A. We also talked a lot about the scary hallway and I truly appreciated what others said about how they, too, are scared of the hallway—the not knowing. So, I did it. I do not know what is next. I do not know if there is a “next.” I am committed to do some work on trying to figure it out. And, in the meantime, live one day at a time.

Here are my next steps: 1) Work with the Job Coach to explore other opportunities; 2) Continue to research counseling programs; 3) Be a mom to my kids, trying to be fully present and focused, while not turning into someone that gets their self worth from their children because that is dangerous for all; 4) Attempt to fill my days with goodness and joy; and 5) Go to lots of AA meetings.

Thanks for joining me on this journey. Until next time, don’t tell my husband I’m blogging :)

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Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.